Disclaimer ~ this blog is going to make a lot more sense if you read “bunions??” and “a week in my life” before this one!!
The Lord has been teaching me a lot about vulnerability, so here goes!
Between training camp and launch, one of my favorite ways that the Lord would speak to me was through butterflies. He would usually send them as reminders of my identity in Him or small truths throughout the day.
There was one day in particular that I was struggling really hard with temptation and forgiveness. I was hiking with my mom and our dogs that day, and an all white butterfly flew right down the path. I didn’t think anything of it really, but the Lord said this. “Your sins are washed as white as snow.” His words are so sweet, and the way He talks to me is such a huge blessing.
He also told me that He would begin walking me through healing while on the race, but I didn’t know if I believed Him. I really just pushed it to the back of my mind until now.
Since I’ve been here in South Africa for the awakening and debrief (check out my last blog of you don’t know what that is), I have been seeing white butterflies EVERYWHERE. The Lord is so intentional. He knew exactly what would get me to listen to Him.
At the awakening on the second day, the Lord told me that today was the day. Today I was gonna share and be vulnerable. Today was the day that would begin me walking towards freedom in Him. Are you sure God?? I know you said that it was gonna happen on the race, but are you sure month one is the right time?? Are you sure it can’t wait a little longer??
white butterflies
Funny enough, there was a speaker that day who spoke about shame. My heart was beating so fast the entire time she was speaking. How did she know??!!!! She kept saying, “If your heart is beating fast, you know you need to share.” My heart was about to pound out of my chest. The Lord clearly spoke to me on that time who He wanted me to share with and what He wanted me to share. I knew this was the healing that needed to take place in order for my heart and my bunions to be healed, but I didn’t know if I was ready to confront it yet.
white butterflies
Well, that night during worship, someone got up on stage and shared a testimony, and it was about exactly what the Lord wanted me to share. Okay. Then after worship, another speaker spoke about small yeses. It was all about saying yes to the Lord in order to have more of an intimate relationship with Him.
reminders or white butterflies (it was dark out)
So, I said yes. I shared what I needed to share. I knew I wouldn’t be walking in freedom like magic the next day. The Lord clearly spoke that this healing was going to take a while. This healing wasn’t done until my bunions were healed.
The next morning there were white butterflies as I watched the sunrise. White butterflies as I listened to teachings. White butterflies as I processed what He was teaching me.
There wasn’t freedom yet, but there was joy. Endless joy. I don’t even know how to explain it.
white butterflies
your sins are washed as white as snow.
you don’t have to walk in shame anymore.
I don’t know what freedom looks like yet. I don’t know when on the race the Lord will fully walk me through healing, but I have a taste of what that looks like. A taste of freedom. joy. walking pain free.
all my love, Kate
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I’m so proud of you, bug! Keep listening and learning and watching as the Lord in His goodness speaks His truths to you. With so much love, Mom
THAT IS AWESOME!!!
So excited for you Precious Princess of King of Kings.
You have a beautiful way of expressing yourself, Kate, and your blog posts are so encouraging to read. It is obvious you are growing so much in the Lord. I appreciate your transparency as that encourages me in my walk with Jesus. I love that our Lord is so intentional and tender with us.
Kate, It is so wonderful to read how you are growing in God and listening to Him, developing your own intimate relationship with Him. I agree with you in prayer for your healing. So glad it is started. I am excited to hear how God will work it out for your complete and total healing! I love reading your blog.
Thank you for sharing these beautiful words, Kate! You are such an inspiration to me!
Kate, I really appreciate your writing. You are so open, vulnerable and descriptive. It feels like I’m sitting alongside of you as you’re telling a story. You are an amazing Woman! Continue to listen to the Lord. With Prayers, Ed
Butterflies have been a STRONG reminder in my walk of faith that I am a new creation in Christ!! (And He has every hair on my head numbered —nothing is too small to bring to Him in prayer!!) So much so that a prayer I often pray for people in “send them butterflies Lord” and I know He knows exactly what I mean — sometimes I know it will be something else that will speak to that persons heart (other than a butterfly) but I know He will supply exactly what they need. Will continue to pray butterflies for you Kate:-)